[he mulls that over for a few long seconds, looking. . . pensive]
I can only really speak for myself, but-- [breathes out as he chooses his words carefully]
I'm not naive. I know that despite what we're all saying, the deck might be way too stacked against us for us to overcome it. But if I think about that, or if I say, "but if we don't win then I'm okay with dying," then it feels like I'm letting my fear get to me.
Because I am afraid. Who wouldn't be. . .?
[a pause]
So I need to dedicate my all to fighting. I'm not the kind of guy who'll do something I believe is wrong for a bigger cause either-- [lol Akira doesn't know about his Reap self] -- but I am the kind of person who goes down swinging.
[which is why he doesn't let himself think about what might happen if all of their fighting winds up for naught]
no subject
[. . .]
[he mulls that over for a few long seconds, looking. . . pensive]
I can only really speak for myself, but-- [breathes out as he chooses his words carefully]
I'm not naive. I know that despite what we're all saying, the deck might be way too stacked against us for us to overcome it. But if I think about that, or if I say, "but if we don't win then I'm okay with dying," then it feels like I'm letting my fear get to me.
Because I am afraid. Who wouldn't be. . .?
[a pause]
So I need to dedicate my all to fighting. I'm not the kind of guy who'll do something I believe is wrong for a bigger cause either-- [lol Akira doesn't know about his Reap self] -- but I am the kind of person who goes down swinging.
[which is why he doesn't let himself think about what might happen if all of their fighting winds up for naught]