I kept trying to say something. I thought maybe if I said it out of the blue, whatever was stopping me would not be able to catch up until it was too late...
I could not even tell Dimitri or Yin Yu or Lili...
[ she shifts. she just looks... worried, for now. she could talk about how concerned she is about phoenix all day but they're having a pizza party so she doesn't want to derail things further. ]
All of them deserve hope. It's hard to not get beaten down.
I was - I almost asked -- [ she frowns. she looks like she's having a hard time here, and then: ] I asked what would happen if Wei Wuxian played darts with me. It was getting bad.
But finding everybody here made it easier. And I want everybody to have that same foothold.
[oh. something about that makes flayn's expression flicker, and she reaches out to put a hand on her arm. (but, like, gently. and she's trying to find somewhere that isn't too roughed up.)]
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[ET TU, AKIRA. but she gestures at the others]
...I think you can see why I do not think I need protection. They are quite adamant about my survival already.
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I guess I'm just joining that party a little late, then.
[sparkles]
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[wait.]
Please tell me you did not...
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[innocently]
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[FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, WHY.]
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[she. sighs.]
I suppose I ought to thank you, but...
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[he shakes his head]
I know it was selfish.
I just didn't want to be alone again.
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she can definitely relate to that.
flayn reaches for his hand to give it a gentle squeeze.]
I know. ...and you are not alone anymore, Akira. You have all of us, now. We are not going anywhere.
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[she can hear the relief in his voice]
. . . thanks. For trusting me.
Even if it was obvious I was trying to catch you guys.
[and boy was he trying HARD]
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[she manages a smile]
...I just wish I had been able to tell you more, sooner.
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[that's all he has ever wanted]
I know why you couldn't, though. My role isn't the same as yours, but I haven't been able to tell a soul.
Not Lili, not Ash, not Chuuya. . . no one.
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I could not even tell Dimitri or Yin Yu or Lili...
[it's been KILLING her]
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[ sigh. ] I wish I could. I want him to know there's hope, somehow.
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Yeah.
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And she went out of her way to give me hope this morning.
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.... This certainly was not what I imagined.
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I was - I almost asked -- [ she frowns. she looks like she's having a hard time here, and then: ] I asked what would happen if Wei Wuxian played darts with me. It was getting bad.
But finding everybody here made it easier. And I want everybody to have that same foothold.
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[oh. something about that makes flayn's expression flicker, and she reaches out to put a hand on her arm. (but, like, gently. and she's trying to find somewhere that isn't too roughed up.)]
Beau... I am glad we were able to support you.
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It's stupid, isn't it?
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[Considering their whole conversation.]
But - it is like I told you. I don't necessarily know that we have the answers you want. We've just been fucking around in the dark, throwing darts.
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[oh. . .?]
That's why I used 45's item to find Shinobu.
I wanted to know why.
[and. . . well. now he knows!!]